Do you ever sit in the quiet and just think? Think about the past, present and future. Well I do. I'd like to say my past is something that I like to reflect on, but it's not. Sure there are some good things that I so desperately cling to, but then there's the bad. The memories that just won't leave me. Then there's the good things that I walked away from. I find myself saying, "If I could only go back..." The thing is, I can't. I can't change my past. I can only work on what I'm doing now and hope that these things will bring a happy future. Life is filled with so many twists and turns, it's hard to know where you will end up. I thought I had it all figured out. Boy did I have rude awakening. Presently, I know what it is I want. I wake up with it on my mind and go to bed thinking about it. However, it requires much patience, understanding and self control. A good friend of mine told me that I must find happiness in myself before I can find it others. I've spent all this time thinking just the opposite. Well thanks for letting me share my thoughts.
Until next time...
Posted by nikki at February 13, 2005 07:55 AM