Well, I must say becoming a mother is far from easy. There are so many things that could go wrong in the course of nine months. Thankfully, I've had a very easy pregnancy. No morning sickness or horrible aches and pains. No insane weight gain either. Everything has gone just great. Now, however, the doctor thinks it's best that I be induced because I've passed the 40 weeks of normal pregnancy. When he's telling me this, all I can think is my due date is wrong anyway. I know when I got pregnant not that stupid wheel thing they use at the doctors office to come up with a due date. Then I think you're a man who can't possibly know what it's like to be pregnant or give birth. All you know is what you've been told and have read in books. (True, this is how most people learn, I mean I've never been pregnant before so what do I know?)
Being a first time mom and single is frightening at the least. Thankfully, my sister is going to step up to the plate and come to the hospital with me. My mom sure wishes she could be there but she's diabetic and not really up for the travel and my dad would rather I just come home and see them after I've had the baby. Best believe though there'll be a picture of mom right there in the room with me until I get to see her. Something about becoming a mom makes you want your mom. At least that's how I feel.
So tomorrow evening, I will be on my way to hospital and some strange people are going to make me go into labor. How nice! I was supposed to go in this past Sunday, but I declined. I just wasn't ready. I still don't feel ready, but the more I wait the greater the risk to the baby (so the doctor says). I feel very scared but happy at the same time because in a few days I will be holding my first-born in my arms.
I hope to be able to share another blog entry with you all announcing the birth of my healthy baby boy in few short days.
God Bless,
Nikki